“James Lipton asked Monteith a now poignant question: “If heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates?’”
“Cory’s God said, ‘Uh, sorry I haven’t been around. There’s a good explanation.’ I certainly hope there is. We needed Cory’s gifts,” Lipton said during the episode.”
That one sentence about Cory’s God speaks volumes.
I still don’t feel as if I can do this subject justice yet- but most of us know addicts who have either already been killed by their addictions or continue to suffer and Cory had battled long and hard.
Cory admitted in the past that he started drinking and doing drugs at the age of 12 and when pressed on whether he could avoid the temptations of Hollywood in 2011, Monteith said, “I can’t completely rule out any of that happening.”
“But,” he added, “I can’t un-live the life I’ve lived.”
My own suspicion is that getting into the mindset to play an addict-hustler in the upcoming film McCanick - which was shot last September – re-awakened the demons that eventually took Cory’s life despite a rehab stint in April.
The most eloquent essay on addiction that I’ve ever read is Russell Brand’s which is both poignant and touching without being sugar-coated and explains what Cory was up against so much better than I ever could.
He says of his support groups:
Without these fellowships I would take drugs. Because even now the condition persists. Drugs and alcohol are not my problem — reality is my problem. Drugs and alcohol are my solution.
If this seems odd to you, it is because you are not an alcoholic or a drug addict.
Tragically nothing can help Cory now and whatever the cause of his death (and we will hear the official verdict shortly), one tiny shard of hope is that Monteith wasn’t some scuzzy Pete Doherty type people don’t really identify with – he was a (albeit seemingly) shining, happy Glee kid.
-So if his death scares troubled runaway teens away from trying drugs in the first place (and recovering addicts to succumb to that ‘just one hit’ that might kill them) then some small piece of good can come out of the darkness that surrounds Cory’s death – so very much before his time.
Here’s a clip of Cory on the Inside The Actor’s Studio that’s re-airing in the US on Thursday.